25/02/2025
God insomnia's a bitch. That's it that's the whole post
23/02/2025
On one hand I do think it's important to just go where your mind wants to go and not try and control yourself or your thoughts too much, but equally I've got plans tomorrow that I'm very excited/apprehensive/nervous about and I just cannot stop thinking about them. And it's like, sometimes that can be productive, but at a certain point I just get bored and overwhelmed and I don't want to make a huge deal out of it in my head, y'know?
Anyway, if you notice how many posts I'm going on the various areas of this website today, it's part of my efforts to distract myself. I'd love to do some more proper coding because I find that that can be very engrossing but there's nothing specific I feel like doing - that's another frustrating thing I'm experiencing a lot at the moment, wanting to do something but not being in the mood for anything. Ugh, why is having a mind like this. Maybe I need to resign myself to it or properly commit to a distraction - I'll see what I can find to engross myself. I've been rereading Pride & Prejudice and I'm thinking about rewatching the film - maybe that'll be it, or researching a random topic or something. Maybe I'll get ahead with some uni reading. Ach, I'll figure it out.